Last night at supper we were talking about what our prayer requests were – and as always (for the last 4.5 years) adoption came up from Eden. And so, I reminded her when we pray we need to pray and believe – not just say words. And then she said in the saddest little voice – “sometimes I just can’t believe any more.”
I know exactly how she’s feeling. Exactly. Before I could imagine getting a phone call with our referral, or a child in my arms – now it’s hard to even believe we are still in this adoption process.
I told her that sometimes I just don’t have the faith or the words to pray or believe for one more second. But – I know others are praying on our behalf. Believing. They’ve got our back. And I’m so grateful. SO grateful. That it’s a whole community praying this Jefferson home to our arms – not just us.
And Mark and I asked the girls if they thought we should consider pulling out. Walking away.
And everyone answered “no way”.
This isn’t the journey we had envisioned – but man. What a story it will be when we get to the next chapter! A story you are all helping to write alongside us – thank you. Thank you for petitioning the Author for us on what you want to see happen next. Can’t wait to see what He writes.